You know back in the elementary school days, when a boy (or girl) would attempt to hold your hand.. or rather, make any physical contact with you, even if it was a simple high five to congratulate on your four square win… and you’d get that butterflies feeling inside, and no, I’m not talking about your stomach growling because the bully managed to, surely once again, steal your lunch money and the ritz crackers your mom ziplock bagged as a recess snack.

Well, I still get that feeling. But what’s surprisingly ironic is, it’s not a tingly sensation and no, they don’t arise in my abdomen area. Heck, I’m not even quite sure how to further elaborate on it.  It's just this warm feeling in my chest, easily mistaken as heartburn for you savage eaters, that is somewhat pleasantly uncontrollable.  It’s almost as if you can’t breathe, or have difficulty doing so during that specific moment.  In reaction, I place my hand on my upper chest, in my futile attempts to moderate it, as I’m taken a back by this amazing aura.  This doesn’t occur on a regular basis, well maybe the past few weeks have been an exception, but I guess it’s become an indication for me because I only get it from someone special. Initially, I figured this “warm feeling” would only randomly surface around his presence, but I soon realized that even the mere thought of him could, without a doubt, make my heart melt.  There’s just something about him, some characteristic (or perhaps multiple) that distinguishes him from others.  He never fails to leave me in awe and inevitably, although not intentionally, take my breath away…

I’ve been wanting to update my xanga for a while, and have been searching for something meaningful to post about… and I quickly found myself flabbergasted because I couldn’t find the precise words to express my current sentiments.  I guess he has a way of leaving me speechless … and you know that addicting “Heaven” song by Jamie Foxx (iTunes notes that I’ve played it more than 500 times already since I came back to berk two weeks ago) that I previously posted lyrics from, I truly feel that song is about him.  And every night before I sleep, I always contemplate and reflect on the past few hours, day or week, wondering how I found myself in this surreal situation, and acknowledging how extremely blessed and lucky I am to have come across someone so genuinely unique, caring and appreciative of his family, friends and life in general. 

... Always dreamed that it would happen

I just didn't know exactly when

All my life I'd been waiting for something amazing

Said it took a while but now I know…